But because of this experience, I grew up a little.
New perspective, New outlook on (lol, not life) men and relationships.
A little more realistic view
A little more scared because of the reality I see
A little more cruel, for my defense mechanism
A little more heartless, because it hurts too much to care.
A little less of that Sandy y'all used to know.
A little less of that Sandy y'all used to pat on the head
A little less of that Sandy y'all used to hug and protect
A little less of that Sandy y'all used to say "she doesn't know, lets keep it that way"
A little less of that Sandy y'all Still to call "Bubbles" -- for many different reasons.
But at the same time, I'm still that Bubbles y'all love and adore.
(--Dont argue with that phrase, you know, on some level, in some twisted way, with certain definition of Love, y'all love me and adore me. and you care or else you wouldnt be reading this. Am I right?)
I still shut my eyes and cover my ears whenever a scary movie trailer comes on TV.
I still refuse to watch scary movies
I still cry by just watching something as small as a sad music video
I still have to fight back the tears when I see homeless kids on the streets
I still get Very uncomfortable when I have to say "No." or to decline anything that isn't out of politness.
I still pour my heart out to my best friends
I still trust in the goodness of people and their intentions
I still care just a little too much about people.
When it comes to the core and heart of me, no one else could understand me more than y'all.
There are still many things I do not know,
There are still many things I do not understand,
There are still many things I do not like knowing,
Things that make me uncomfortable,
Things that make me close my eyes and cover my ears.
But I intend to find out now, stepping out of my comfort zone,
out of your protection, out of my Bubble
( --Before you jump at the idea, scary movies are still Off Limits.--)
After all that, y'all understand what I'm trying to tell ya?
No? that's ok.
The point is, I've changed. (for the better, I hope.)
