(Almost) 3 weeks

It’s amazing how much (almost) 3 weeks can do to a person.  Through time I was finally getting use to being independent and being alone. It took almost my whole life to get there. Just (almost) 3 weeks, all that training and time given practice were all taken away. The place I call home is now strange and awfully quiet.  All the things I enjoy doing alone seem obsolete and boring, and all I want is for you to be around again.

From the walk home to actually sitting down at my table I kept having the feeling that something was missing.

Walking around the house I still walk around the area where your suitcase once was.

Come 9pm I had the urge to go for our usual night walks.

Walking around the neighborhood, I passed by the gas station with the convenience store. Reminded me of you, how you would almost always get a smoothie if we pass by. How you remember to put in coke first because that’s the favor I like. Walking down the Avenues of houses we visited, pointing out the ones we like and don’t like.  – I even giggled to myself as I passed by BOBS.  

It seem like everywhere I go we made memories and I can’t get away. Can’t help but feeling so awfully alone in a city I came to know so well.

You’ve trained me well. Its 3am and I’ve just finished a movie but still wide awake.  – I will probably sleep in til noon tomorrow.   You know what?  I don’t even care that some of the movies we watched were stupid.  It’s enjoyable just being in your arms or next to you.  Sometimes I prefer just being next to you because you are so damn warm all the time. You’re like an all year space warmer.  But now that you are gone, my room is too cold to leave the window open.  – what can I say? I’m hard to please  (not to cold not too warm) :P

It’s amazing how much (almost) 3 weeks can do.  Taken away all my independence and then some.   I was just getting use to not having you around. I was just getting use to being alone. I was just about to stop missing you so much.  – (almost) 3 weeks was all it took…

– thinking about going to bed now , it seem so strange to not have your arms around me.